2024 Wrap-up

 

Stock image I found in relation to this post. Just for the hell of it.

NOTE: This post was written in a text editor and posted to my socials around Thanksgiving. I have uploaded it here for convenience.

It’s Thanksgiving today and I’m sure you’re all enjoying yourselves out there with you and your families, so am I. I wanted to write up this post in regards to my feelings towards this year because there hasn’t been much from me during the entirety of 2024. To keep it brief, 2024 was a terrible year for me, and probably for countless others.

For starters, CyberAnima saw ZERO PROGRESS from this year, aside from sharing like one in-dev clip from March or so. Around summer 2024 a lot of things happened both in terms of CyberAnima’s development and my personal life that caused my own morale to dip to extreme depths. Most of my summer was me suffering in the heat (the A/C is borked in my household) and doing nothing but occasionally watching a movie or two. I couldn’t even play video games because the heat was so unbearable that I didn’t want my gobs of sweat to ruin my keyboard, mouse, joystick etc. I already explained it on the stixc blog in regards to what is happening with CyberAnima, but a lot of things occurred that caused development to screech to a halt for a while. But nowadays development is picking back up steam. Don’t expect a lot, but I don’t think it’s at the point where it’s “on hold”.

But aside from that, nothing spectacular happened this year since I rarely worked on CyberAnima and nothing of note occurred to me that made me pleased. I still lack a job and driver’s license, and most of this is due (without getting super personal) to my family being super busy with a lot of things, with no real way of helping me when there’s time. And honestly judging by a lot of things I’ve seen throughout this year and prior years, I’m really unsure if next year will be much better. I hope it will be better, but I’m still very much unsure. Especially since a lot of other things happened personally, such as having to make a new Discord account due to banking issues, losing some online friends, etc. Plus we’ve seen some global stuff happen as well that wasn’t super spectacular. It is the things that make me lose morale and make me feel extremely miserable.

But despite the crestfallen stuff I talked about, I always aim to be optimistic when things feel hopeless. I’m still here because I want to do a lot of things, like create CyberAnima and other future projects. I never give up, and even if things look like the end of the world, I always keep my chin up and give hope that things can be much better even if they get worse. Time can be an enemy, but it’s also a friend when it feels like it. I probably already said this in the CyberAnima 2024 update, but regardless nothing will be thrown away, and I always strive forward in the darkest of times.

So what are my new years resolutions? (even though it’s Thanksgiving?)

• Work on CyberAnima more, try to focus less on any detractors, distractions, or anything that can hinder morale.
• Figure out a lot of other small scale projects, both for shits n’ giggles and to give anyone out there a taste of what I can do, maybe it’s a music album, a story compilation, pretty much anything at this point.
• Hope that I finally get a job, driver’s license, whatever I need after what seems like eons of nothing.
• Hope that nothing goes south by a huge margin and I can get through next year with peace.

I really hope you understand all of what I’ve said in this post. As someone who suffers from autism, ADHD, and a lot of other neurological, psychological and physical disorders, I’m really hoping I can plow through any forms of hostility or issues so I can do the things that I want in a satisfying manner. I really want to deliver amazing things to the people that I love until the world blows up. And I really just want everyone, regardless of who you are, to all just be happy with me. I’m really hoping for the best, but only time can tell.

I hope everyone has a good Thanksgiving, since I’m thankful for the friends I still have and my supportive family who have done their best to make me the best in a world of hurt. Stay frosty out there, and be the best you can be.

- Charles (stixc)